For YEARS, I have been coaching and motivating people all day, every day regarding weight loss, muscle gain and owning their body. I am a wellness coach, personal trainer, group fitness instructor and corporate coach. I have too many clients to count and I see the beauty in all of them! YET, a couple of days ago after a weight gain panic attack, I became my own client!
I have been powerlifting for about a year and a half, with a more serious focus and dedication to the sport since last February, and an even more serious focus over the past month. I am 2 weeks away from being in-season for my very first competition in June at the age of 52. Prior to powerlifting, my average weight was 132 on my 5′ 6″ frame. My comfort zone. As I started to lift heavier weight, that number went to a steady 134 and remained that way, give or take a pound or two for about a year. Somewhere around early January I noticed that my clothes were getting tighter. Hmmm. I was aware but was ok, sort of . . . my pants were tight but still fit. I did not weigh myself.
Two days ago, it happened. I put on a pair of shorts that I hadn’t worn in a while, but were a normal go to. They were way too small! Like, I can’t wear them small. HOLY SH*T! For the first time in my adult life (aside from 5 prego’s and babies, that’s a different story), I was growing out of my clothes. I was asked by my coach to step on the scale. I wouldn’t do it. He got mad and told me it’s just a number, in this sport you need to be strong, it’s not about aesthetics. But I am a woman that loves to look good in my clothes, rock a dress and get in my jeans without issue. My head was getting in the way. I wasn’t looking at my body or seeing strenght, I was focused on the shorts!
The next morning, I stepped on the scale and there it was. I was 141. I saw that number and felt like I had gained 20 pounds. I was in new territory. I have not changed my eating habits. I am still regimented with my food with some fun on the weekends, but not crazy. Not even someone else’s normal. That’s when I became my own client. Kathi! You are working hard. My trainer side said, check your body fat. I did. It had gone down and I have actually gained 6 pounds of muscle since I last measured. Six is a lot on a woman, since the average muscle gain is half a pound a month. I started to calm myself. Then I thought about what my coach would say if I stayed in this place for more then a few hours, let alone days. He would tell me the sport is not for me. Oh NO, I cannot hear that! I started to get over myself. I don’t want to lose my gains. Muscle gain is what I am going for and I know what to do to lean out a little without losing muscle. I took control and made a plan. I am going to weigh in every week, ironically just like I have all my weight loss clients do! I did an intermittent fast today, on my off day, to give my body a break. I am both the coach and the client! I will tell myself that I’ve got this. I will not panic over the number. I will do the work to drop a few so I am more comfortable, but cannot deprive myself because my body needs the nutrients to build more strength. Cut some useless carbs, sure. Get more sleep. Drink less wine. Check.
The lying hamstring curl is not burning like it used to. I am getting in the reps on the leg extension without dying. I am getting stronger. My friends are noticing the change in my body and have been commenting that I have a realy booty now, which I apparently didn’t when they met me, lol. I had a moment, well more like a day. I panicked when I saw the number. Then I pulled myself out of the hole. Being a baby about it won’t do anything. My mind and body are my choice. I choose action. I will do what I need to do and find the balance and will do it with a healthy mindset. Woos’s don’t lift heavy weights! Take that scale!
See you in great shape!
Your Iron Beauty Coach,