Memorial day weekend is here and this morning I had my moment of truth. The bathing suit and shorts moment! Nothing fits! All to small. I couldn’t button my shorts. The competition is in 5 days. Put a skirt on!
I took today off. I haven’t had a day off since? I actually don’t know when. I have been working like crazy for over two years now. Keeping up with our growing Iron Beauty business, managing social media pages, growing a coaching department at No Body Denied, coaching countless number of people through their weight loss journey to better health with our nutrition products, public speaking, corporate coaching, it goes on, all while raising 5 kids, two whom are graduating this year so the activities are crazy.
The one thing that I have to work around, that many people can’t understand, is my training regimen. I have been working out my whole adult life. I do not function well without it. In fact, I love being on a structured program. I lift weights to manage my real life stress. It keeps me sane. Helps me escape for a little while and mostly because it just feels good.
There were all different phases of training over the years of course, having kids, 4 of them in 5 years, while working in the city until #3 came along. This often meant the treadmill in the basement, with a baby in a bouncy seat sucking on a pacifier, or the double stroller around town or months of wishing I could but didn’t.
I have been lifting weights forever but for the last two years I shifted focus to powerlifting. I said out loud to my friend/coach, “I don’t want to gain weight”. To which he replied, “Then this sport is not for you.” That made me mad, I thought, yes it is and I shut up. I was not thinking right. I had to experience it to understand, as much as I knew how the body has to adapt, I was still thinking I could stay my weight and just get stronger. Nope. When you put that kind of stress on your body, such as lifting heavy loads, your body has to adapt to that stress by adding muscle. My body had to put on weight. Which it did, about 8 pounds. And yes that’s mostly muscle. I work hard motivating so many all winter to stay on path and so many for weight loss. I am now sitting in my car on the way to the beach in a bathing suit with a skirt on that is no bigger than a bandana on me now, but was all I had while flying through the house trying to get ready to leave. My goals are not typical and I have to remember that.
My legs and glutes are bigger. Ok, so deep breath, pause and reflect. The shorts that fit last year could not lift the weight that I can lift today. My body adapted to my sport. I’m not skinny, but I am stronger at 52 than I was at 22, 32, or 42. I guess you’ll be seeing me in skirts this summer! Note to self: I will embrace my body for what it can accomplish. I will look at the size of the bar I am lifting, not the tag in my shorts! I have been training very hard for a reason. That is where my focus will stay!